Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Call Me Lazy
I have many aspirations. I would like to be really good at taking awesome pictures. I would like to be much better at playing the guitar than my current skill set allows. I would like to be able to sit down at a piano and play something decent. The list could go on and on of the things to which I aspire. But, I've had a recent realization about myself which makes these aspirations seem a bit out of reach. I don't want to LEARN to be a good photographer. I just want to BE a good one. I don't want to LEARN how to play the guitar better. I just want to PLAY it better. I don't want to LEARN (or relearn since I did have lessons when I was younger) how to play the piano, I just want to PLAY it. It seems I have a problem with patience. I'm not patient enough to take the time to develop these and other skills that I aspire to. I just WANT them! I know that this completely goes against the whole character-building, learning to appreciate the work that goes into developing talents, developing a good work ethic rigamarole that we always get from those "older and wiser" than us. And I know that that's not the way things work - especially for me. And, I know that suddenly having a talent without doing anything to develop it is not going to happen. But, it doesn't change the fact that I just want to be good at stuff without having to try. Maybe it's something I'll aspire to.